Nobody can help you until you decide to help yourself.
Pray 5 times and read Quran-e-Pak daily with translation then you will come to know that this life is a test and we
are here to give examination.
We will see the result on the Day of Judgment.
Pray for yourself.
Work, study, play and rest all four things are important in life.
You are big enough to think and act upon the right thing otherwise you will left behind the others.